It has to be said...

I don't mind being single.

Wanna know the one question I hate being asked more than anything, are you dating anyone? honestly why should that be important as to who I am. Obviously if you know me well enough or are one of my good friends you would know if I was dating anyone or not so thanks but no thanks, perhaps you'd like to know my favorite color instead.

I don't think being single at 21 is a bad thing. I have a great life, I really do. I've heard people say, "oh I can't wait until I'm married and have someone to share my life with". I don't see me walking through life alone because I'm not married, I have lots of really good friends and even family that I share my life with and have plenty of pictures to prove it : )

Basically, I don't think I'm ready for marriage. There's so many things I still wanna do in life and one of them is be selfish, I'm not quite ready to give that one up yet. I enjoy everything being all about me and not having someone else to have to coordinate my plans with, or check in to. I think if I was to be married now I would feel left out when my friends did random trips, dance parties, football games, etc... and I don't want to feel that way. When I get married I wanna know that I've fully lived through that "independence" stage of life and I'm ready to move on.

I suck at cooking. I'm not ready to be the little wifey who has to come up with what's for dinner, my poor husband would starve to death because I don't think he could survive on what I would call my creative diet: crackers and cheese, cold cereal, Wendy's, Costa Vida, mac & cheese, coke, hot pockets,Panda Express, PBJ's, Arby's, cookies, Maggie Moo's, etc... and I don't need any more complainers in my life.

Marriage is a great thing, don't get me wrong, I have lots of friends(my whole graduating class) that are married and love it. I want more than anything to find the love like my parents have as well as my Sister & Bro in law have, but I need time to find it, those kind of guys are pretty scarce these days : ) After being a CNA and seeing adorable elderly couples I want nothing more than to find one I can grow old with, I need to be sure it's gonna last.

Besides, nursing school is tough! I thank goodness every day I go to class that I'm not in some of the situations that the other students are in who have 2-4 kids, a job, a husband(or even single mom's), and have to do school. I can barely do it taking care of myself! Kudos to you guys though, you're amazing.

Basically, life is great and I don't feel like I'm missing out on too much being single, also don't feel like I should be viewed as less of a person. It'll happen when it happens so any excess pressure or commentary isn't gonna make it happen any sooner : )

and that is my soap box for the day. whew! thank you I feel much better.

Lately I...

Ash has been on my case lately for an update so here it goes. Here's a little insight into my life as a student nurse...

I spend my days down in the "dungeon" halfway freezing to death and halfway numb fro m sitting.
I attend 3 hour classes which some drag on way longer than others.
I've never been more excited to learn.
I haul a 50 lb backpack around campus, along with a "lunchbox" full of nursing assessment supplies around 2 out of the 3 days I have clases.
I see the same 20 people in my class every day, and am slowly getting to know them and love them.
I spend my free time in the library attempting to study but... socializing more.
I get excited over little things like my name badge, and wearing my uniform for the first time last Friday.
and...I get overwhelmed...a lot!

however fun still fits very tightly into my schedule so here's a preview as to what I do when I'm not being a nursing student.


Visit Maggie Moo's

Parowan Derby

Longboarding : )

Watching and Meeting funny comedians...Jeff Dye in particular

Dance Parties

Cake for Matt's birthday


Taking advantage of all the free food opportunities

Playing Frisbee...well kinda



also we had our first football game of the season against Dixie State. (This is for you Channy) We SLAUGHTERED them : ) The stadium was packed, we had over 10,028 people true story, check the desert news or daily herald. It was so much fun to get all decked out, go to the tailgate party and actually win!






Go Birds!!!

grandma's little young women

Have I mentioned lately how much I LOVE my niece?! She's seriously the cutest little girl. I got to play with her this weekend and it made me realize just how much I've missed her the past two weeks. She's adorable.



Love you baby girl!! can't wait to see you again in 2 weeks, don't change too much on me.
PS. can I just say that this baby being in our family has proved to me these things: My parents are the amazing grandparents I knew they'd be, Jake and Ash are adorable parents and seem to be thriving over it, My brothers make the cutest uncles ever! and Channy will forever be cuter and better with little kids than I can ever hope to be.

days of "labor"

I went home for labor day this year. I wasn't planning on it but I had the day off this year(which never happens) so I took full advantage and after clinicals Friday myself and two friends hit the road back to Utah county. It was such an amazing weekend! The first two weeks of school have been tough and it was nice to have a little vacation away from the stress.

*Saturday*
I hung out at the Grandparents house and had a "produce party". We picked corn, husked it, bagged it and also canned peaches all morning. Let's just say watching my mom and grandma bustle around the kitchen trying to teach me about canning made me really grateful that I still have time to learn how to be a mom and wife someday cause I am no where near experienced for that kind of thing. My favorite part of course was taking the peels and husks out to the pasture and making new best friends with all the cows
my cousin Megan's baby shower was that afternoon which worked out perfectly for me to be in town for. She looks adorable and I can't wait to see her baby girl in a about a month.
all I gotta say was Go Cougs!!! That game was amazing! Still can't believe they beat em but definitely kudos. (Thanks for letting us all invade your house and for the amazing dip Ash)





(ps. I have the cutest grandpa)

*Sunday*
I got to go visit my old ward, I miss them so much!! Our guy friends were so much fun this summer and it made my day to see them again. Also got to see my old roommate and condo. Lisa rearranged it and added a huge red love sac, yeah looks way better now and I miss it.
I finally got to see Jenny again! this was the longest separation we've ever had and it was so fun to go on a long scooter ride and catch up on each others summers. I still we wish lived in the same town.
Jeni came down to visit and we went to Bicentennial Park with her sister Jessica. We walked through the swampland, got freaked out and came running, screaming out of it. quite the sight to see I'm sure.






*Monday*
I forgot my suit so while everyone else went to 7 Peaks I hung out with my mom and niece, pretended to study and ended up taking a much needed nap! apparently everyone else was tired on labor day...